Where all things collide

Social Media

Thu, 23 May 2013 10:58:24 -0400

Have I written with the same title before? Oh well. I was the type who would wear my heart on my sleeve and spill out my troubles instead of hiding them. Was. I was. Notice the past tense? After a few things that happened, I… ok fine. I guess I wear my heart on my sleeves sometimes. Don’t wanna put on too much of a façade. It won’t be in my benefit anyway… but I guess I’m keeping more things bottled up. And humans… can’t do that. The bottle has it’s limits. I’m not an expandable bottle.

So the next best (or worse, actually) is social media. From that experience, it seemed too daunting to pour out on facebook. Too many friends, too many people looking. And I didn’t want to be seem as an attention seeker. Twitter? Sure. But there’re still these one or two people… and I realised when I try to make my feelings as toned down and general as possible, it seems as if I’ve just fallen out of love. Or is it just me? Haha. Idk.

Anyway, so I guess tumblr is my last resort. If one were to look at my tumblr and then my facebook, you’d think that I’m bipolar. But that’s why. I don’t want people to know I’m sad. What for right? Everyone has their own problems to worry about. Hence all the rainbow and unicorns there. Twitter is not too bad since everyone’s tweeting like there’s no tomorrow. But tumblr…

Ahh tumblr is my sanctuary. Cos I know that only you. Yes you. That one person is reading whatever I have written. Maybe you wouldn’t even see this post. But if you do, I apologise for spamming your dashboard with emo posts. But it feels good though… to know that… I’m not talking to myself (kinda). That at least someone knows?

Silver (:

Wed, 22 May 2013 08:29:32 -0400

I GOT SILVER FOR NAPFA~ finally. Adter all these years… year after year of bronze thanks to that cursed inclined pull-ups. SILVER! Wow. Just a day of over exertion and I managed to do an extra 2 (: not bad really. Considering the fact that I still had muscle ache nearly everywhere- the abdominal muscles, my biceps my thighs and my calves. But this… was to the expanse of my ‘A’ for sit ups (still had abdominal muscle ache despite warming up and couldn’t do it properly), a slower timing for shuttle run (still got an ‘A’ though) and a just nice pass for my sit and reach. Oh well.
I will work hard during the june hols! (: you will see a fitter and slimmer/toner me! I shall FINALLY have a flat stomach. And maybe retake napfa to get a GOLD :D

I got highest in class for a bio test too! Yes… 7/10 ain’t much but… come to think of it, I’ve never gotten the top for anything in sec sch… hardly in pri sch so… yeah, I’m just happy.

And I bought SHINee’s dream girl album! :D more music to my life~

Overall, it’s been a really really good day (:

No Title Needed: Whiskey Bottle

Wed, 15 May 2013 02:08:00 -0400

No Title Needed: Whiskey Bottle:

deaditez:

Clive held the whiskey bottle close to his heart. The bronze liquid kept a fire going in his gullet and cleared his mind of a past that was always trying to keep up with him. A taste of copper tinged his palette as he recoiled from the memory of his busted cracked lips. Eventually he’d throw a…

Ok I'm making a post about this...

Fri, 10 May 2013 04:02:45 -0400

taemintchocolate:

… because I keep seeing so many people spazzing about this tweet:

This is referring to an OLD INTERVIEW that they aired today. (this one)

I’m sorry guys. He’s not back. One of the other members (I can’t remember but I think it was Onew) said yesterday that they didn’t know when he would be, so I highly doubt he would suddenly appear out of the blue.

I got excited too T_T

Please help spread the word so we don’t have any more disappointed Shawols.

shawol-confessions: Sometimes I’m not sure if SM is the right...

Fri, 10 May 2013 02:13:45 -0400

shawol-confessions:

Sometimes I’m not sure if SM is the right place for Jonghyun to grow as an artist

fangirls

Thu, 09 May 2013 00:58:22 -0400

*fangirls*

Photo

Thu, 09 May 2013 00:55:12 -0400

Half russian

Wed, 08 May 2013 04:05:58 -0400

This half-russian guy in my school is cute. Good speaker. Preaident of Council. Tall, charming and friendly too. Not bad. Hahaha. No, not crush. But he is good catch if you ask me. Not that I know him that well… one thing’s for sure, it is a great compliment to whoever he has a crush on in school (if he has). No I’m not hinting nothing.

Lost

Tue, 07 May 2013 02:23:08 -0400

At times when I’m allowed to, I think about everything and nothing. All that has happened to me, all that I’ve felt, all that… just comes. A chatter of thoughts. All fighting to be heard.

At times like these, things seem… pretty bad… I wanna say it all out. I wanna get those questions answered I can’t… I just v can’t…

Why does everything seem hopeless?

Lost in the sea of emotions.

Time...

Mon, 06 May 2013 01:48:06 -0400

Despite what I say, it takes time to get over… it really does. He’s still cute. He’s still atrractive. I know, I sound hopeless. It just takes time… plus, better to air it out than keep it in right? I won’t promise this is the last post about him… at least I stopped looking out for his trapezium.

Reflect the sun

Fri, 03 May 2013 09:35:48 -0400

I wish… he didn’t tell me. Or maybe it was for the better that he told me. Wish leaves me to ask. Do you still have a crush on me? Does that feeling fade the more we talk? Is it possible for a guy and a girl to be best friends and have a platonic relationship? Even when both or single and are greehorns? Am… I falling for you? Or is it just my head? My heart feels nothing. But then again, the lines are blurred. Maybbe it’s just me disliking being ignored on text messages or whatsapp…

Head and heart

Fri, 03 May 2013 09:06:46 -0400

Is it possible not to have a crush? Just because I got over one… or is it just my head confusing me, and not really the feeling of my heart? Orr maybe I just need someone. Anyone. I want to unload all my stress too. Someone I want to hug- whoever he/she may be- to release everything. Sob it all out. Once and for all. And focus on what true matters: My studies. Maybe I just hate people not replying me… we are, best friends afterall… I just feel… a little sad that… he isn’t replying me.

It is no more

Mon, 22 Apr 2013 20:32:18 -0400

So I’ve gotten over him. Sounds like I wqs in a relationship… hahaha. No no, it was just a crush. Such a waste though, I think he would’ve made a good bf and he’s quite good looking too. Hehe (: oh well.

But the situation is getting worse. He’s less friendly with my og mates now. In general. He’s… put it in a nice way, reserved now. It was as if og never happened. He doesn’t even wave or smile at the og mates. Doesn’t initiate that wave or smile at all… oh well. Hopefully, everything will get better soon. Time… makes or breaks. We’ll see how then.

Afterall, I don’t think I can do anything, neither do I bother anymore.

Victorians

Tue, 16 Apr 2013 06:31:57 -0400

Thank you for cheering for me today (:
It was a game against vj. I got subbed in halfway. Of course I was nervous! Was the reserve, and the worst player on the team. I was scared. Scared of missing the ball, scared of reacting too slow, scared of… dragging the team down with me. Although I didn’t really had the chance to do anything after you guys cheered, you made my day (:
I felt at home when the bus turned into vj. “Ahhhh, home. I’ve missed you vj.” These were the thoughts going through my head. I’m gonma be lambasted at at this point. Shouldn’t my loyalty be to Nj? Why at home in vj? The team we’re playimg against, no less. I guess, it’s the VCA thing. And the fact that I know lots of Cedarians are here. VJC… is just like home. More than Nj is.
And cheering by you guys. It was… wow. I felt… warm inside. I felt great. I felt useful. I felt like a Cedarian once again. The confidence and all trickling back in.
“GO KHYSTELLE!”
“GO KHYSTELLE YEO!”
These are the words that will be forever etched in my mind. I can’t wait for any other opportunity to go back.
Thank you (:

codywbratt: This is how I feel.

Mon, 15 Apr 2013 20:33:06 -0400

codywbratt:

This is how I feel.

A friendship truely ends Not when one betrays Not when one blows up But when either stops...

Mon, 15 Apr 2013 20:18:12 -0400

A friendship truely ends
Not when one betrays
Not when one blows up
But when either stops caring

Cos that’s when cracks appear.
No matter how strong
No matter how long
That’s how friendships disappear

What now?

Mon, 15 Apr 2013 10:58:14 -0400

So now I look like a flirt, like a player? In a new environment where you were the first few friends I made… it was clear from the start, I knew nothing of these kinda games. Yet. Just because. Just because of what? I seem closer to the few guys in class? Just because I stand with them most of the time during morn assembly? Then why can’t you be categorised as a player? You are surrounded by girls. I mean literally SURROUNDED. Not that you’re actually flirting with them. Well neither am I, with those close guy friends of mine. At least I have lunch with a girls onky gang once in a while. Must gender segregation in jc still exist? It’s called co-ed for a reason! I thought people wouldn’t be that judgemental…. but of all people, you! My first few friends. In a place where I started out at square one. If you view me as a player what about others?
It’s a scary place… scary. Scary. Scary. Let me run. Let me hide.

On the other side...

Tue, 19 Mar 2013 11:46:44 -0400

On another note, why does everyone I meet think that I have/am dating? When I asked a friend, he said it’s cos of the way I act around guys… Is it because I’m friendly with guys? Too friendly, apparently, he replied. But then again, so many other girls interact even better with guys! What then? What the hell did I do? And apparently a few people in school think that way… he seemed to be hintinh that a few people are whispering behind my back… or is that the paranoid me? I wanted a fresh start here… but what has happened? 2 months seems like 2 years now. Help. What did I do? I’m sorry I can get a long well with guys. But I am sure I don’t act sweet, girly, prim and proper, or anything in front of them! Ok, maube except for my crush but that’s normal.

Hide in the closet. What have I done?

Tue, 19 Mar 2013 11:46:21 -0400

Hide in the closet. What have I done?

OMG IDK ANYMORE JUST LET ME RUNAWAYYYYYY

Tue, 19 Mar 2013 05:44:05 -0400

OMG IDK ANYMORE JUST LET ME RUNAWAYYYYYY